Christmas (dos) come but once a year.

Christmas (dos) come but once a year.


It has come to my attention that if I go to the Christmas Party this year at work I will have to wear a new dress. This is because my one viable party dress, which I like very much, I wore last year. To the only work event I’ve been to, with the same people who’ll no doubt go this year, and I like…

You know, Marisota do nice stuff… although not sure about their ethics.



Signs in the bathrooms at Bristol Uni for Trans Awareness Week.

Yay for Bristol Uni :)

Yes yes, and yes some more .

One of the schools in our area (Ridings Academy) has done away with their single gender bathrooms, and now has just single stalls. Although I note they still have gender markers on them, despite each stall opening onto the corridors and a non-gendered sink area.

Living with an ILR

As I discovered yesterday when it was peeing down with rain and again this morning, my ILR is just at the wrong place to wear waterproof trousers with suspenders: the left strap pushes on my ILR.

It doesn’t hurt per say, but it does make the thing uncomfortable. And having just got used to having something beneath my skin, I don’t need reminding there’s something there. 




So I had a momentary distraction (that lasted about an hour). I wondered if, for our upcoming Thanksgiving, I could coax the RiscPC into providing us with music. The only slight problem was that the RiscPC is 18 years old, and won’t talk to the network properly. It has internet access, of sorts….

You know I’m there for the love of the old computers… 

I’m thinking there must be a way of passing it data over the network using some clever gubbins. I’m sure John would help …

So. This heart thing….

For the past month — since I came out of hospital — I’ve been kind of hiding from the fact that there might be something wrong with my heart. I’ve also been taking ß-blockers in an attempt to prevent me from fainting quite as much. 

While that has been met with limited success — I don’t faint unless I’m really tired or super stressed — I’ve just received notification from my local hospital informing me that yes, I will be required to go into hospital for the implanting of an ILR. 

An iLR — or Implantable Loop Recorder — is a small device that fits just below the skin in the chest area and keeps a recording of your heart. As the name suggests, the device is actually on a loop: it overwrites data unless you have something particularly interesting happen that it then either automatically records or stores if you tell it to. 

The procedure itself is tiny. But I’m actually petrified of it, and I can’t actually say why. Perhaps it’s because i’ve come to tell myself that no, the problems I’ve been suffering form are simply stress-related faints rather than anything more sinister. Perhaps it’s because while I’ve had four or five major surgeries in my life and ever since my last one (in 2004) I’ve become a little bit of a ninny when it comes to such things. 

But I’ve been doing some research to try and find out a little more about what it is I’ll be getting and how they work. And hopefully, no-one will tell me I can’t drive. Since I tend to have these ‘episodes’ in the evening, it hasn’t been a problem yet. 

I guess it’s time to stop being such a wimp…


So these beta blockers. They’re making me feel exhausted all the time, and already I’ve put on six pounds. I’m also cold all of the time.

I want off.

Quiet Spaces

Quiet Spaces

You may not realise it — my on-line demeanour is often mistaken for extrovert behavior as is my willingness to talk and be lively in public — but I’m totally an introvert. 

And I don’t mean a little: I mean a lot. A large part of the reason I’m struggling to find a work space that works for me is that I want somewhere which is both quiet and calm but also affords me a way to get away from the home environment. 

Today, I’m working from home, and stumbled across this in a quiet moment. I love the fact that the house is quiet. I can think. There’s minimal distraction. And i wondered “what if someone has already thought of solving this problem?”

Turns out they have — and it’s beautiful. 

Susan Cain Quiet Spaces by Steelcase offer five diverse ways to empower introverts at work. Footprints range from 48 to 100 square feet with specific postures, work modes, and expectations for quiet and privacy supported by a carefully chosen range of Steelcase and Coalesse furniture, materials and technology to create not just spaces that are physically quiet, but that offer an atmosphere where introverts can work their best.